Spring 2024

[i drank so much coffee, my brain detached]

By Brooke Kenney

I drank so much coffee, my brain detached
from my spinal cord and I became a hallucination
that sat and watched myself in each multiverse (there are more than infinite)
and in a sealed thick white envelope, delivered by a carrier pigeon, I was handed peace
that was as crisp as teeth know an apple and I thought to myself, maybe drugs
aren’t as bad as they say they are because I feel like I’m sinking
in a warm cup of tea that will soothe my throat so that I might start
singing again which would be making art and I haven’t made art
since the last time I made love and now I remember how this multiverse
is one I must experience (suffer through) because his hands don’t cup
my face, his thumb doesn’t trace the shadow of my cheek bones
in other realities in quite the same way and while I may be free from this pain
of losing him in another realm, I need to feel his hands, his weight—
this is why I take drugs, this is why I don’t sugar my coffee.


Brooke Kenney is a graduate student at California State University, Chico, pursuing her MA in English with a concentration in creative writing. Brooke’s poetry has been featured in The SandPiper Review, The Manzanita, and The Blue Route. When her nose is not stuck in her books, she’s hiking, working out, or enjoying a martini with an extra olive. You can reach out to Brooke on her Instagram for any inquiries @brookekenney.

Spring 2024